
Kiannie how are you doing from your post still not so good, Just remember that you will make it through this together it is very hard to be away from the one you loved more than anything in the world. I know how you feel I have been doing this for a few years and I just pray god gives me strength to keep us both going at time's I get upset, I cry at night I just miss him so much I don't always know what to do it is a blessing I have such great friends who understand and listen and encourages me. I also talk to him alot about how I feel and he makes me feel alot better.
I know the ex wife thing is unsettling you just have to trust that your love is strong enough to with stand anything. I'm praying that god helps you through everyhthing and those pills are not a good things to use to help cope with this situation. Being depressed is a state of mind that can be change just try to stay focus because he needs and you need to be healthy for your self.